Last night I had something happen to myself that scared the shit right on out of me. It was a shop accident . (I work with wood) I had no one to un-shatter me about it except those I know over at Lumberjocks. Lumberjocks is a wonderful working with wood community that I feel some of it's members are closer to me than some of my own family members! So I went to them.

This is the letter I wrote in their forums.

Even though it’s been over an hour ago I am still shaking. I was using my band saw when I was cutting a piece of hard wood and I heard and felt the familiar feeling of the blade coming off it’s wheels. Yet I had just got done with the cut and had already put my cut piece down and turned off my saw . It all happened soo fast. I have only owned and ran one band saw in these three years and I really do know it’s little ways. I never thought twice. I opened the door to get to the blade and I have never experienced anything like that in my life. I am sure you know now that it had not fallen off, it had broke. That M.F.er’ flew around that room with no intent of stopping. I was ducking and ducking and ducking some more and I am sure I was screaming at least I think so.(Of course no one came). I was 100% spared and the only reason I think so is the way I was standing and the way I opened that door. I opened it fully so at the very beginning there was nothing to bounce off of (on the machine). I just gave it full reign on wherever it may go.
I learned a very important lesson tonight. I just shudder to think what may have happened. If someone else would have been in that room they surely would have been hit. I just happened to know where everything was and was able to duck good enough. I know the spinning sound of my band saw when I break a blade . All I can think is it had fallen off or was just about ready too and when I opened the door it busted at that very second.
What scares me the most is I am afraid of my own fear. Like falling off a horse, they say you are suppose to get right back on. I don’t see it that way (right now anyway) I am scared I will never touch the thing again!

Here is the link to all the wonderful words of encouragemant, along with reality checks, well wishes, and the such.
I do not know how I would have been feeling all last night and today without them!
If you are interested please check here!

http://lumberjocks.com/topics/5273

Today, as I am leaving the post office with my mail, (I live in a town that does not have home delivery of mail)Thumbing past the bills and bullshit, I was excited to see I had 2 new woodworking pattern magazines and a new crochet pattern magazine. Woodworking and crocheting are my favorite pastimes here on planet earth, even above blogging. I always seem to make something from each mag as soon as I get them (which is every 2 months)Ah, but it does not look like this time! I was so disappointed when I got home and all 3 of these mags were for patterns to do with Christmas. In the woodworking mags there were the patterns for the ornaments, the Santa Claus's and reindeer and such. In the crochet it was nothing but Christmas Stocking's , Christmas tree skirts, the doilies, and of course the runners you place on your 8 foot dining room table for that Christmas meal that we all have on our 8 foot dining room table. It is September, these mags say they are Oct, and Nov. It seems like these companies that run these mags would perhaps have specialty mags for the purpose of Christmas, Easter, etc. The sad thing is the 2 wood mags are by far the best I have ever found, and the crochet one is known as one of the best. But it has gotton out of hand and I think I will just have to stop the subscription's. For me it is WAY too early to be hawking Christmas, and my personnel opinion is they are disgracing their dignity as a mag. I know I for one do not want to spend the next 4 months making ornaments and crocheting Christmas socks. I would much rather be expanding my learning by be given (well I pay for the mag) patterns I can use and learn from all year round! After all they ARE pattern mags. It is hard for me to believe I am the only one out there that feel's this way.

Found another one of those sites, ya know the kind! Where they can figure out something you about in a nutshell by just answering a few questions. I have always loved these because I love to see how close I perceive myself to be compared to what the "Quiz" says I am. So I am happy about this one I took last night because I sure hope I am creative due to my passion of working with wood! So I just thought I would share this. If anything it is a little bit of an ego booster which definitely can't hurt my personal thought process!

You Are 85% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!